Lying facedown in the gutter of unaccomplished dreams and broken memories of things to come

Vaguerealization: i don't think the hire ups realize without me last season would not have happened
Vaguerealization: jim could not do it alone, sjpac (the company that we did shows with) was no help, and hayden would not show up unless he was forced
Vaguerealization: and on top of this i juggled working outside gigs with mike, department shows inwhich i stage managed, assistant technical directed, assistant directed, lighting designed, master electricianed, ran the lighting board, did carpentry. oh and i was taking 15 credits each semester. and made dean's list
Vaguerealization: i damn near killed my self for them and they want to replace me with some half assed "professional" that will not put forth half the effort i have